So I managed. I wrote and published my first page of the book yesterday and I must say it feels like being on a high. I never used drugs but I feel wonderful and crazy at the same time. Is that the feeling of drugs? I think this is so much better than an artificial high, awesome!
My best friend and life partner made a really great comment. He said: “Energy creates energy”. And that is what it is. When we start with something we are truly excited about, a couple of things might happen to you.
First, you feel that you can conquer the world. As snow disappears from the sun, suddenly the things that were withholding you from getting in action will make place for some fresh and new life. The life that was hidden from you appears right in front of you and it is up to you to enjoy it.
And as I am writing this, I hear you say: yeah yeah, you’re on a cloud. Go f*** yourself. It will not last. Of course you are (partly) right. I am on a cloud, it might not last forever, I will face huge challenges. But that’s life. Facing challenges, finding solutions for those challenges and facing new ones. It’s up to you though if and how you want to face these challenges. I rather do that on a high, with my lows in between, than just cruising and feeling sorry afterwards for not having tried.
Instead of finding relevant (or irrelevant) excuses, you take action. And as energy creates energy, action creates more action. In my example: I started writing, I decided to publish, I created a website (it’s definitely not perfect, we’ll talk about that later), I posted my first page and here I am writing my second. And I have no idea what is going to come, but that’s alright. Because I have started and I can celebrate my first little accomplishments. And like a snowball that rolls from a mountain, it will turn bigger and into something more.
I’m not good enough. I can only start when. I don’t know what I can expect when I start. What if I fail? There can be so many noises in our head that it will keep us paralyzed. To get in action mode, we need to take one step at a time. And then another step. And another one. Now you have already made three steps and look how far you have already come. It doesn’t mean your fear is now gone, but you can see that even with fear, you can make progress.
This is a big one for me. I will come back to purpose later as there is too much to write about this.
I know this list of feelings that might happen to you is absolutely endless. I hope to hear from you during this journey what things happen to you when you start something you really want. Keep in touch!